i was looking for something that i did not find.
i made arrangements to go without it.
i found it 3 days before d-date.
it was too late to incorporate into the work schedule but too important to leave.
i was in a fix.
scared, shit shit scared.
there are these nervous pangs which are almost unknown to me. i have given umpteen exams, umpteen vivas, i just never have nervous breakdowns, nervous pangs and that sinking feeling is something that is foreign to me. melancholy is my vice, but a cool head and confidence is my virtue.
i was shit scared.
i had a brother who looked at me and said don't worry we will work it out.
i realized i have this particularly peculiar confidence in him that lifted that cloud.
he is younger than me but then he was like a big brother who is here only to get rid of my problems for me =)
it still was a troubled night but i knew i had someone to walk with me.
i was scared no-more.
p.s.: i will still fight with him and crib about him.. =)
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