it was too late to incorporate into the work schedule but too important to leave.
i was in a fix.
scared, shit shit scared.
there are these nervous pangs which are almost unknown to me. i have given umpteen exams, umpteen vivas, i just never have nervous breakdowns, nervous pangs and that sinking feeling is something that is foreign to me. melancholy is my vice, but a cool head and confidence is my virtue.
i was shit scared.
i had a brother who looked at me and said don't worry we will work it out.
i realized i have this particularly peculiar confidence in him that lifted that cloud.
he is younger than me but then he was like a big brother who is here only to get rid of my problems for me =)
it still was a troubled night but i knew i had someone to walk with me.
i was scared no-more.
p.s.: i will still fight with him and crib about him.. =)
it is that time of the year.
the MUSH time of the year.
and as i am not counting on any knights or princes or anybody for that matter to show on my door , i have, thus, planned to post sweet nothings on my blog.
not that i am the typically-pink-lovey-mushy kinds but then this time of the year makes me behave like one =|
the first: the greatest compliment you can give a girl. dedicate a song.
the ones topping my list this year are:
give me a name for the season, the name for this part of the year.
name the wind that blows in the evenings these days... give me a name for the guilt, the remorse.
give me a reason, give me a name.
give me a reason to leave, give me a reason to stay.
peck on my cheek,
a long conversation in silence.
a long phone call.
a whole day of loud music, singing at the top of my voice...
a peck on my cheek
a guilt free/remorse free day.